A-Sad-Invention

when did you fall out of love with me? was it the day you told me you hated me, or was it before? was it before you ever stopped smiling at me when you passed by? was it when i made a mistake? i could've swore you said it was fine. but then again you said it was fine over and over again until it lost all meaning. i tried to talk to you but you retreated to that place in your head that only you can reach. I've tried to break in over and over again but you wouldn't let me in. i just wanted us to be perfect and you wouldn't let me. you were always so far away, like something distant and untouchable. i thought we were gonna make it through, thought we were going to stay through it all forever. but I've thought that many times before and it was never true. i thought you'd be the one, just like i'd thought many times before.
sometime, you left. i don't know when or where or why but there was an empty feeling in my chest when i realized. next thing i knew, you were acting like a stranger i knew nothing about. it's like you forgot everything that happened between us. who is she and when did you fall for her? like you fell for me, or will you actually stay with her? there are so many things i want to ask but you're so far away and i can't reach you, i want you to come back and stay here, don't leave me all by myself, alone because I'm afraid of what might happen when i don't have anyone to call mine anymore.

buddy come up w something or ill do comp entry meself